WOW. I had a major wake up call this last week. It has bee staring at me in the face, like a giant goddamn fucking big, bright, shiny THING! I mean, come on! Adrian and I have both struggled with our weight over the last two years. With the new business, Jack's autism diagnosis and Kane being born - things have been hectic and sad and beautiful. So, fast forward to Christmas - only 5 months ago. I began feeling soreness in my joints - especially my elbows and wrists so I attributed this to my ever-chopping duties to create Jack's menu. Well, long story short - I read Jenny McCarthy's first book just the other day called Louder Than Words. I read it in one night, fast, easy read and it was all about her son's autism diagnosis - so I flew right through it. She supplements his probiotic needs with something called ThreeLac. So, I Googled it. She also must have stock in Google because she mentions it about a million times throughout the book as being the best search engine ever. NOTED, Jenny. Noted.
So, ThreeLac is well and fine - expensive but a good probiotic from what I read. I then read a few other pages below giving it's cons. I was brought to a site stating it wasn't great, and so on and so --- etc. Whatever. THEN! And then, Candida and it's symptoms were listed. I had nearly all of them! JESUS H CHRIST. I have Candida Overgrowth! Love sweets and crave alcohol (beer) - YES. Sore joints - YES. Crabby - YES. Depressed - YES. Fatigue - YES. Prone to UTI/YIs - YES. And I give you exhibit A - my son Jack who has YEAST issues. DUH. Super duh, super biggest duh in the world fucking DUH WORLD. God, do I feel like an idiot. Also another symptom - brain fog, bad memory, etc- SUPER YES. I have all these things. Overweight, water retention and finding very difficult to move the weight off. SUPER, DUPER YES. I have found my problem! Here I am studying countless hours about this very subject for Jack and it's staring me in the face. I need to give up alcohol, sugar and dairy. TODAY. If I'm going to help Jack, and get our lives back on track this is what I have to do. I fully, completely understand now. Holy Fuck. I feel like I've finally seen some sort of LIGHT. Back to the research.
Here's the plan. Take the first two weeks to detox from all the sugar, alcohol and dairy - I'm probably going to HERX. Just like Jack did. Candida DIE OFF. Can we spell FUN? (herxing is a reaction to the yeast dying off inside your body - when the bad bacteria die they give off toxins and it really upsets the flow of things. No pain, no gain buddies.)
Thing is - I have been struggling with a new decision to finally start taking really good care of myself for a LONG time. Probably before Jack was diagnosed a year ago. Having Kane really put it in hyper drive and I forgot to take care of my own body. It happens, I get it. I'm not going to beat myself up about how I got here. I know how it happened. It's the part about ending it and replacing old, nasty habits with good, happy habits. I don't think it will take long but the first couple of weeks are gonna SUUUUUUUUUUCK.
I don't want to feel like shit anymore. And I want to be present and healthy and HAPPY for my kids. This has to happen. It WILL happen.
It all starts now.
