I've decided to shift my focus, it's been very difficult but I am off Facebook. Jack has started school now and is picked up and dropped off every day, right from our front door. He is so happy in the morning to go to school! What a relief this has been. I saved and saved to make this move and I did it, for him. I feel good today. I feel like my efforts have given him a better life, for the time. He enjoys the company of a small group of kids just like him, as he's grown - he's gets clearly frustrated as his words are not understandable yet. He has his own language - he tries to talk but the words don't make sense to us yet. I'm taking out the things that cloud my mind in turmoil and fear. I am putting myself and my own health in front now, so we can come together and be close. I am exhausted. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically - just completely wrecked for the time being. I need to recover. I need a pause so I'm taking it.
I've been so lucky with this new school, they also have him attending their summer camp in July so he will be only away from school over summer for a month. Thankful is an understatement. We can already tell he's different. He's more present. He's making emotional connections and craving love from us. He's stimming less and less, every day.
I love him so much, my beautiful sweetheart. He was diagnosed with autism exactly a year ago today, my heart grows bigger with each passing day because of this little boy.
